Category: Grief

Published on April 17, 2024

Without Him

It is strange the things that trigger the grieving. The other day it was a visit to the accountant to prepare my taxes. Every year for over 26 years we had our ritual at tax […]

Grief
Revelations
woman staring out the window.

Published on June 28, 2023

Beyond Unraveling

It is beyond unraveling. It is a twirly top after the string has been pulled. The tower card in Tarot where it all comes tumbling down.   It is a profound grief and regret at choices […]

Transformation
Grief
bonfire on a dark night

Published on October 16, 2022

You Are the Obstacle Course I Avoid

You are the obstacle course I avoid,The detour I make,The abyss I elude. Because it hurts so much to think of you, and to not think of you.  I haven’t figured that out yet.   You are in […]

Grief
empty bed with sunlight coming thru the slats

Published on March 18, 2021

Ode to Bobcat

On Sunday morning I let my cat out the front door.  Later that afternoon, I heard him yowling in the backyard to come in.  I opened the door and was surprised to see he was limping, unable […]

Aging
Dying
Grief
Musings
Revelations

Published on March 12, 2021

It Aint No Fairytale

Once upon a time, there was a girl who met a boy.  They got married and had a child and lived happily, give or take, for a long time.  Then one day, in the middle of May, […]

Creativity
Garden Journal
Grief
Musings

Published on September 17, 2020

Underneath the Noise of Her Leaving

What is this feeling? It is joy, it is pleasure, it is fun. It is lightness. Free from worry and resentment and sorrow and anger. It is a sparkle of sunlight in a thick fog. […]

Aging
Dying
Grief

Published on August 24, 2020

Another Bridge

Don’t look too far ahead. At the tsunami headed our way. Don’t look up from the path in front, the next footstep in front. Watch out for rabbit holes and landmines,  They are everywhere as […]

Aging
Dying
Grief

Published on June 10, 2020

This, Too, is True.

What is True? I am struggling with this one.   Some truths are easier to accept than others.   Some are a surprise.   Some come upon me, like eyes awakening.  A big OH! Like turning a corner and there […]

Aging
Dying
Grief
Revelations

Published on June 04, 2020

We Keep Her Here

I am witnessing what is happening in my mother’s body. Feet swollen, that step so carefully, on broken glass.  As gravity pulls at her back, her head.  Come to me, fall into me, it welcomes.  Sleep pulls her […]

Aging
Dying
Grief

Published on November 04, 2019

Story of a Ring

He told me the diamond was Montana mined, found in the mighty mountains of Montana.  I’m not sure if that was true, but I loved the thought of it.  He gave it to me one night, slipped […]

Grief