Category: Grief
Published on October 16, 2022
You Are the Obstacle Course I Avoid
You are the obstacle course I avoid,The detour I make,The abyss I elude. Because it hurts so much to think of you, and to not think of you. I haven’t figured that out yet. You are in […]
Published on March 18, 2021
Ode to Bobcat
On Sunday morning I let my cat out the front door. Later that afternoon, I heard him yowling in the backyard to come in. I opened the door and was surprised to see he was limping, unable […]
Published on March 12, 2021
It Aint No Fairytale
Once upon a time, there was a girl who met a boy. They got married and had a child and lived happily, give or take, for a long time. Then one day, in the middle of May, […]
Published on September 17, 2020
Underneath the Noise of Her Leaving
What is this feeling? It is joy, it is pleasure, it is fun. It is lightness. Free from worry and resentment and sorrow and anger. It is a sparkle of sunlight in a thick fog. […]
Published on August 24, 2020
Another Bridge
Don’t look too far ahead. At the tsunami headed our way. Don’t look up from the path in front, the next footstep in front. Watch out for rabbit holes and landmines, They are everywhere as […]
Published on June 10, 2020
This, Too, is True.
What is True? I am struggling with this one. Some truths are easier to accept than others. Some are a surprise. Some come upon me, like eyes awakening. A big OH! Like turning a corner and there […]
Published on June 04, 2020
We Keep Her Here
I am witnessing what is happening in my mother’s body. Feet swollen, that step so carefully, on broken glass. As gravity pulls at her back, her head. Come to me, fall into me, it welcomes. Sleep pulls her […]
Published on November 04, 2019
Story of a Ring
He told me the diamond was Montana mined, found in the mighty mountains of Montana. I’m not sure if that was true, but I loved the thought of it. He gave it to me one night, slipped […]
Published on May 05, 2019
Two Sides of the Coin
I wake up this morning with a heavy heart. It is our wedding anniversary. We would have been married 28 years. My initial impulse is to crawl under the covers with the cat on my heart and […]
Published on May 02, 2019
Dancing with Widow (a year of firsts)
They call it that, ‘the year of firsts.’ The implication is that it will be a painful year of all the landmarks you will survive without your partner: the first holidays, the first birthdays, the […]
